Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Page of Swords

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When pulled upright this card is about curiosity and a never ending supply of ideas. It’s about being great at communicating. This person has a lot of nervous energy and their mind is never just empty. They always have something to think about. If this card is representing a message then it could be about gossip, legal matters, and agreements; very sword-esque topics. This card could also serve as a reminder to be alert, to keep your eyes peeled, and to stay vigilant. In addition this card could be about an idea you have that you are really eager to execute. You are really passionate about this project and you cannot wait to tell everyone the progress you’re making with it. This is definitely the time to talk about your or other people’s ideas.

When pulled in reverse this card is about using that alertness and sharpness for deceit and manipulation. Their natural gift with talking may be used negatively as they may become very hurtful. They may not totally realize the pain they are causing, whether that be from immaturity or just ignorance. They are really just focusing on how good they feel after lashing out at others. This person though could also be someone who is full of empty promises. They like to talk the talk but not walk the walk, if you will. This card reminds you to show that there is action behind your words. 

Excuse the potty talk in this tarot spread but I thought it might be relevant in helping you figure out what’s up with that reversed page of swords in your life. First I would take the page of swords out of the deck and meditate on it while thinking about that person who’s… well… being an asshole. Then shuffle and pull the cards using your preferred method.

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Friendly reminder that they don’t have to be a “he”.

That’s all for today! Let me know what the page of swords has been telling you in the comments along with any other thoughts or questions you may have. Remember to enter my giveaway for a free tarot reading or reiki session. Also make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications what I post and when I upload videos to youtube.

Grieving as a Wiccan

Lately I’ve been grieving a lot. This last month or two has been pretty hard. So today I want to talk to you about that. I’ve wanted to talk about it for a while but I wasn’t sure how to format it. So I’m just deciding to write. It may be super long or super short but I think writing this will get it off my chest. My writing style may be a bit different than it usually is, it may not be… I dunno. Regardless I hope you don’t mind.

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The Thursday before the Easter weekend I was contacted by my family, while at work, that my great grandmother wasn’t doing very well. She’s hasn’t been super healthy for a couple years now but nothing crazy. However this time was different. My mom usually tells me that it isn’t anything to worry about yet, but this time she said I might want to come home and see her. So there I was in front of my preschoolers that I teach and I just cried. I told them what was wrong and let me tell you, 4 year olds are so compassionate and loving. They loved me and snuggled me all day long. It was so beautiful. I went to see her that weekend. I live about 3 hours away from my family. My partner and little sister went in with me to see her. She had a hard time talking cause her breathing was very laboured but we had a great visit. That’s the last time I will see my great grandmother. She’s still alive though. When I went to see her she was at her home. Now she is in a hospital and has been for a couple weeks now. My mom says she isn’t the same nan we know and love and that she wouldn’t want me to see her this way. She’s in a lot of pain and is just waiting to die. Every morning I wake up and check my phone to see if I have a message telling me she’s passed. I hope she does soon so she can be at peace. She really hates hospitals. So this is when my grieving started.

Back in March one of the little girls at my preschool (we’ll call her Mabel for privacy sake) went to Florida with her family for a trip. The second day in she got very sick and started having seizures. She had to be put in the hospital. She had what they call F.I.R.E.S. I am not super knowledgeable on what it is. All I know is it’s rare, it started as a common cold, and she had seizures, also 30% of those who get it die from it. However I didn’t know that at the time. It never occurred to me that she would die. Maybe that is naive but that’s how I felt. For two months I had very few updates other than a gofundme page and occasionally something would get written on her classroom attendance sheet about it. Then I came in to work last Friday (the 10th) and was told she didn’t make it. Mabel was 4 years old. I know a dead 4 year old. I was nervous for my kids to find out. I didn’t want them to be sad or scared they were going to die. But when you’re 4 years old 2 months is a long time and a lot of them didn’t remember Mabel very well. I was lucky in that sense so instead of being sad they just had a lot of questions which was a lot easier to deal with. This last Thursday (the 16th) I went to Mabel’s funeral. I wore a pink dress (everyone was in bright pinks and purples as requested by Mabel’s family). It was one of the saddest things I have ever experienced.

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I’m telling you all of this for a couple reasons. One reason is that talking about this I hope will be a little therapeutic for me. I also wanted everyone to understand why my posting has been so inconsistent these last few weeks (also why it may continue to be inconsistent when my nan passes). But also I wanted to share how I am coping as a Wiccan (or if I’m not already doing these things they are things I want to start doing to cope).

What is helping me cope with Nan is first and foremost I know that her passing is going to bring her peace. But also I know that her soul will reincarnate and I will meet it again whether in this life or the next. I’m really trying to focus on the fact that she lived such a great and beautiful life and not on the fact that she’ll be gone.

What is helping me the most when it comes to coping about Mabel is also related to reincarnation but it is a bit different. If you’ve read my post about the signs you are an earth angel you will know that many of these people die as a child. When I think about Mabel, and the beautiful energy her soul had, I confidently feel she had the soul of an angel. Without a doubt. So despite the fact that I don’t totally understand how she died, I can understand why she died and that to me brings great peace.

However other than thinking about these things I have not done much to cope but have just not been thinking about it and it’s probably not the most healthy method of healing. Things that I want to start incorporating into my coping process that you can try too is reiki (be it self reiki or receiving reiki from someone else). I also want to pray more. As I’ve mentioned in my post about my relationship with praying , I tend to stray away from it because it reminds me of Christianity. I think grieving may be a great way for me to change that relationship with prayer because at the end of the day you can pray to whoever or whatever you want, not just the Christian god. So I’d like to reach out to Gaia and Pan more for strength and you can do the same with whoever you matron or patron is. I think meditating and grounding myself will also help me stabilize my emotions. And the last thing I want to suggest for myself and for you is divination. Do spreads to help sort through your emotions. Do spreads for how to cope. Do spreads to talk to those that have passed on if you think that will give you closure. Do a spread to see how your future will be after you’ve moved forward from this hard time.

I hope that this post gives you some ideas on how to cope with what you’re struggling with and also lets you know that even if it feels like you’re all alone and no one understands that there are people who get it (yikes that was cheesy but bear with me). Let me know down below how you use your Wiccan/Pagan faith to get you through times of grief along with any other thoughts or questions you have. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. And until next time, Blessed Be!

 

Weekly Tarot Series: Starseed Identity Spread

So for the last week and a half I have been doing a lot of research in Alien races. As you may know, if you follow my posts/videos, is that I am a starseed. As someone who is a starseed my soul originates from a different planet. So I have been trying to find out the planet/system my soul comes from. Something I found while doing my research was this tarot spread. So I thought some of you who are also starseeds mat benefit from this. Also, something I thought seemed important to me as I was doing this reading was that 6/10 cards were associated the with the element air.

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Here is the spread I used

1) What is the primary elemental/spiritual or physical attribute of the world I originated from?

2) What are their core beliefs?

3) What are their goals as a world in regards to the universal mission and state of being?

4)What is unique about my world?

5) Why did I decide to incarnate on earth?

6) What do i seek to achieve in this incarnation?

7) What lesson am I learning in this life that carried on from my last life?

8) What behaviors should I avoid in this life that could hinder my goal?

9) What behaviors should I adapt to aid my development in this life?

10) What message does my star family have for me today?

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The cards I pulled

Card 1: primary elemental/spiritual or physical attribute of the world. (Two of swords reversed)

Essentially it seems like there were to races having a war and my race were the ones mediating. There didn’t seem to be a true right side and wrong side and the whole thing was more grey than black or white.

Card 2: what are their beliefs (the lovers)

They believe in partnership, unity, duality, harmony, trust, and the freedom of choice.

Card 3: what are their goals as a world in regard to the universal mission and state of being (four of wands reversed)

Their goals are to bring harmony and to help those races who hold tension towards one another.

Card 4: what is unique about my world? (Five of swords)

They engage in a lot of conflicts, thought they won or made the right choice but it seems like they possibly didn’t. They seem to be more isolated and are overly ambitious.

Card 5: Why did I incarnate on earth? (Ten of pentacles reversed)

I saw earth’s lack of stability and resources and wanted to help.

Card 6: what do I seek to achieve this incarnation? (Queen of cups)

To connect with others on an emotional level. To teach and support others using intuition.

Card 7: what lesson am I learning in this life that carried on from my last life? (7 of swords)

Sometimes we have to deal with consequences. Being deceptive when you’ve done something wrong isn’t the best idea and it’s better to come clean.

Card 8: what behaviours should I avoid in this life that could hinder my goal? (Eight of pentacles)

Lack of passion, motivation, and being uninspired

Card 9: what behaviours should I adapt to aid my development in this life? (Ten of swords)

Learn to use my fear and anxiety to motivate me. When I’m stuck in a poor me mentality to remember the end means a new beginning.

Card 10: what message does my star family have for me today (King of swords reversed)

Remember to always stay humble when it comes to your intellect. Do not succumb to selfish desire.

So from what I can tell from this reading is that I am connected to the Orion system. Something else that I have done is I got my birth chart read by someone who is able to interpret that and tell where people’s souls are originated from. So I did this (it only cost like $2 and I’ll leave the link here) and she told me that my soul has been around on 3 planets (other than earth) however the one I originate from is Andromeda. This to me suggests that although I originated there I didn’t necessarily stay there long or at least it didn’t have a long lasting impact on me. I also feel that I am connected to the Feline race. Something she did tell me is that I am a crystal child which I previously knew about and was glad she confirmed it for me. She offers a service to tell you all the planets you’ve been and much much more for around $30 and it is something I plan to do in the near future.

That’s all for today’s video! I hope you enjoyed. If you do this spread and/or decide to get your birth chart read I’d love to hear about your results! Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. And until next time, Blessed Be!

Real or Fake Yule tree?

So, today I thought it would be fun if we looked at a question I asked the Wiccan community last year and what answers I was given. Last year was my first yule really. We were in a pretty big place so we decided to get a real tree. Being the weird little witch that I am, I was laying underneath my tree, just hanging out and admiring how beautiful it was. While I was doing this I started thinking to myself, is having a real tree against Wiccan beliefs? Am I supporting the destruction of our forests? So I went to the internet and asked.

So firstly the majority of people said that having a real tree was not against our beliefs and rather could be more in line with our beliefs than fake trees. The reasons people gave for this varied. One person pointed out that the material fake trees are made from is actually detrimental to our earth. The material does not break down and therefore just adds more garbage to our landfills. Another person mentioned that most real trees are farmed so when you think of it that way you aren’t actually contributing to deforestation. Someone else (this is my favourite response) actually said that when you bring the yule tree inside you are actually bringing the sprites of nature inside to keep them warm throughout the cold winter. I personally think that is a beautiful thought process to have.

A few other responses were people actually giving me advice on how to make the most out of my yule tree. So a common comment was people suggesting to buy a tree that has it roots/root ball attached and keep it in your house in a pot. When the holidays are over you can bring it outside and plant it in your yard. This way no trees have to die at all. You can also take the pine needles from your tree and save them for spells, rituals, or anything else you’d use pine needles for. You can also cut up the tree and use it for a bonfire outside.

What I personally did last year with my tree was I cut a good chunk of the log off and this year I am going to take my yule log and make a candle stand out of it. You can also take this log and burn it for a ritual. I also left my tree outside all winter on my back deck as a place for any critters to relax.

At the end of the day though your beliefs are your beliefs and you must to whatever corresponds with them. Not only that but sometimes we aren’t always blessed to have the space for a real tree. This year I am living in a much smaller home and only have room for my little 4.5 foot fake tree. And that’s okay too.

Thanks for reading today’s post. Do you have a real or a fake yule tree this year? Let me know in the comments along with any other thought or questions you have. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter to get notifications on when I post here and upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Merry Meet and Blessed Be!

Working for a Christian Family

Hello everyone! I thought today it would be interesting to give my take on what it is like working for a Christian family. Now I am lucky in saying that the family I have been working for are pretty open-minded, in the sense that they don’t care what I believe, even if they think what I believe is a load of crap. However, it has still presented me with some interesting situations.

I have been working for this family for about 4 months. I am a nanny for their elementary aged daughter. The first month and a half I spent with them we were actually travelling all over northern USA. It was actually a lot of fun. Even at the first week my lack of Christian faith brought up some challenges. At this time their daughter was very religious and was shocked that I did not share her belief in God. She kept asking me about church. I would always say that I think it is great that she enjoys going but that it wasn’t my cup of tea. One time when it was just me and her, God came up again. I proceeded to say that I wasn’t Christian but that I thought it was super cool she was and that everyone should be able to believe in what they want. She essentially told me I had to believe in God because if not I would go to hell. I know she wasn’t trying to be rude or anything. She simply didn’t want me to go to hell, but this conversation happened a number of times. It was very uncomfortable.

Later on the trip it was naturally brought up that I am Wiccan. The family was actually rather interested to hear what that meant. I explained it to them (however I did leave out the magick aspect of the religion). They thought that a lot of our beliefs were actually quite similar despite the different religions and then it wasn’t really brought up again.

After we got home I started watching this child about 2 times during the work week and then most weekends (plus or minus some days depending on the week). So I had a few holidays (Mabon and Samhain) that happened while watching her. Due to this I would celebrate the holidays with her. Mind you, I didn’t do any rituals or anything with her. I only went on sabbat walks or had big meals, stuff like that. I was trying to really make sure I didn’t overstep and make her family feel like I was trying to convert her. At one point I was bringing my tarot cards over to her house so when she was in bed I could do a reading for this blog. She asked me what they were and I answered her. She told her parents and was told she wasn’t allowed to use them. So ever since then I have been hesitant to bring them over, hence why the Sunday readings haven’t been happening.

As for the latest development in this story, this is where the majority of the issues have arisen. This child is very curious and she has lots of questions. She asks me a lot of questions about various things that I believe in. Some examples are: who we worship, what I think of angels, spirit guides, magick, fairies (and other creatures from other realms). This weekend she told me that she didn’t like Christianity and that she was really interested in exploring Wicca. Now if my child told me they wanted to explore other religions I would be totally fine with it. I think all people, regardless of age, should be able to decide for themselves what they believe. However, I know this family has quite a different mindset and would be very mad if they found out otherwise. Luckily, last weekend was my last time working for that family and I can only hope that for her sake (and mine as I am friends with this family) that she forgets about Wicca, at least for now, and continues her Christian faith until she is a bit older.

That’s it for this week. Thank you for reading! Has your religion every effected you professionally? Tell me about it in the comments along with any other thoughts or questions you have. Also, let me know if you’d like to see Sunday tarot readings come back, now that I am done working Sunday’s in a Christian environment. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Merry Meet and Blessed Be!