Hi everyone! I hope you’re excited for Tarot readings to start again because I sure am! So as some of you may know I went through a temporary breakup last week and it made me realize that outside of my relationship I really don’t know who I am. So this week I thought it would be fun to do a tarot spread helping me figure out who I am. Next week we will recommence the chakra tarot spreads we were doing earlier this summer/spring. Also sorry for posting this so late. I did this reading this evening and it ended up hitting home so hard I just needed a long break from it before I could go over it again and type it up. Lastly, this reading doesn’t have a picture to go with spread so I will try my best to show you the set up. Bear with me (the 5th card is supposed to be directly under the 4)
Card set up
Card 1 Card 9
Card 2 Card 8
Card 3 Card 7
Card 4 Card 6
So I am not entirely sure what I expected to learn from this reading but it seems to be very much about the break up and the reading itself has come out a bit bleak in relation to us trying to make it work. So I am really hoping if I altar my path we can change the prediction of the cards.
As you can see I pulled mostly reversed cards and mostly major arcana cards.
Card 1: How people perceive you
I pulled the lovers in reverse. This firstly is important because the lovers is my signifier card. And second it seems very relevant to the break up and most of my family and a lot of my friends knew about it. This card pretty much says that they perceive me as having a lot of inner conflict and disharmony. They see my break in communication and they see the foundation of my relationship being cut off. Overall the affects of the break up are very obvious and all people see when looking at me is the effects of the break up.
Card 2: What you think you are
I pulled the empress in reverse. This card talks about losing willpower and strength. It really shows how I overwhelm others with my caring for them but at the same time I still depend on others (my boyfriend) to care for me. It also talks about neglecting my own needs. I think this whole break up has really shown me how much I depend on my partner and now they we are back together I may be neglecting my own needs as I am worried he will leave me again.
Card 3: What you think you aren’t
For this card I pulled the queen of swords reversed. The queen of swords when reversed is thought to be bitter, coldhearted, and resentful. And I full heartedly agree that I don’t think I am those things. I think I am the exact opposite actually.
Card 4: What you don’t know about yourself
This was the card that shook me up the most. I got the tower in reverse. This card is about a looming crisis that I am avoiding. This crisis has to happen though and what I have been relying on will no longer be there for me. To me it just really sounds like that even though we are back together now, it won’t last and I am just prolonging the pain. I really hope I can change this though.
Card 5: Your true self
This was the card that confused me the most. I pulled the Ace of pentacles in reverse. This card talks about missing your chance. So I don’t know if this really says who my true self is but it feels to me to be saying the break up was my chance and I missed it.
Card 6: What you can do now to be a better person
This card was the emperor. The emperor is about control, organization, having a plan, acting rationally, growing my goals, and being both methodical and strategic. I think this card is saying is if I have any chance of growing from this blip in our relationship rather than just everything falling apart I have to come up with a solid plan and follow it through like the emperor would.
Card 7: What you should stop doing right now
I pulled the six of cups. This card says that I need to stop wanting to return to a happier time and to stop looking to the past to try and solve the crisis. It seems to be saying it is time to move on from the relationship and to go on to better things.
Card 8: What can you do to realize hidden aspects about yourself
I pulled the Judgement card in reverse for this one. It says that I need to stop judging myself so harshly, to move forward with pride and confidence, and to reflect on my life up until this point. In general I have always been my worst critic and I have been feeling guilty for the reasons behind the break up. So I think this is just saying that what has happened is done and there is no sense in beating myself up. All I can do is look back and what is in the past and better myself from here on out.
Card 9: summary
For this I pulled the Justice card. This card pretty much says my decisions effect myself and others long term, that the truth will come to pass, and that it is time to come to a solution once and for all. So pretty much despite all this horrible stuff everything will turn out how it is meant to and for all this to be over we need to come to a solution sooner than later.
Well that’s it for my reading today. Sorry it is so grim. If anyone got something more positive out of this reading than me please let me know in the comments, along with any other thoughts or question, because I’m obviously not thrilled about my interpretation about it. Also, make sure you follow me here and on twitter to get notification on when I post and to keep up to date on an upcoming giveaway. Until next time, Merry Meet and Blessed Be.