Grieving as a Wiccan

Lately I’ve been grieving a lot. This last month or two has been pretty hard. So today I want to talk to you about that. I’ve wanted to talk about it for a while but I wasn’t sure how to format it. So I’m just deciding to write. It may be super long or super short but I think writing this will get it off my chest. My writing style may be a bit different than it usually is, it may not be… I dunno. Regardless I hope you don’t mind.

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The Thursday before the Easter weekend I was contacted by my family, while at work, that my great grandmother wasn’t doing very well. She’s hasn’t been super healthy for a couple years now but nothing crazy. However this time was different. My mom usually tells me that it isn’t anything to worry about yet, but this time she said I might want to come home and see her. So there I was in front of my preschoolers that I teach and I just cried. I told them what was wrong and let me tell you, 4 year olds are so compassionate and loving. They loved me and snuggled me all day long. It was so beautiful. I went to see her that weekend. I live about 3 hours away from my family. My partner and little sister went in with me to see her. She had a hard time talking cause her breathing was very laboured but we had a great visit. That’s the last time I will see my great grandmother. She’s still alive though. When I went to see her she was at her home. Now she is in a hospital and has been for a couple weeks now. My mom says she isn’t the same nan we know and love and that she wouldn’t want me to see her this way. She’s in a lot of pain and is just waiting to die. Every morning I wake up and check my phone to see if I have a message telling me she’s passed. I hope she does soon so she can be at peace. She really hates hospitals. So this is when my grieving started.

Back in March one of the little girls at my preschool (we’ll call her Mabel for privacy sake) went to Florida with her family for a trip. The second day in she got very sick and started having seizures. She had to be put in the hospital. She had what they call F.I.R.E.S. I am not super knowledgeable on what it is. All I know is it’s rare, it started as a common cold, and she had seizures, also 30% of those who get it die from it. However I didn’t know that at the time. It never occurred to me that she would die. Maybe that is naive but that’s how I felt. For two months I had very few updates other than a gofundme page and occasionally something would get written on her classroom attendance sheet about it. Then I came in to work last Friday (the 10th) and was told she didn’t make it. Mabel was 4 years old. I know a dead 4 year old. I was nervous for my kids to find out. I didn’t want them to be sad or scared they were going to die. But when you’re 4 years old 2 months is a long time and a lot of them didn’t remember Mabel very well. I was lucky in that sense so instead of being sad they just had a lot of questions which was a lot easier to deal with. This last Thursday (the 16th) I went to Mabel’s funeral. I wore a pink dress (everyone was in bright pinks and purples as requested by Mabel’s family). It was one of the saddest things I have ever experienced.

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I’m telling you all of this for a couple reasons. One reason is that talking about this I hope will be a little therapeutic for me. I also wanted everyone to understand why my posting has been so inconsistent these last few weeks (also why it may continue to be inconsistent when my nan passes). But also I wanted to share how I am coping as a Wiccan (or if I’m not already doing these things they are things I want to start doing to cope).

What is helping me cope with Nan is first and foremost I know that her passing is going to bring her peace. But also I know that her soul will reincarnate and I will meet it again whether in this life or the next. I’m really trying to focus on the fact that she lived such a great and beautiful life and not on the fact that she’ll be gone.

What is helping me the most when it comes to coping about Mabel is also related to reincarnation but it is a bit different. If you’ve read my post about the signs you are an earth angel you will know that many of these people die as a child. When I think about Mabel, and the beautiful energy her soul had, I confidently feel she had the soul of an angel. Without a doubt. So despite the fact that I don’t totally understand how she died, I can understand why she died and that to me brings great peace.

However other than thinking about these things I have not done much to cope but have just not been thinking about it and it’s probably not the most healthy method of healing. Things that I want to start incorporating into my coping process that you can try too is reiki (be it self reiki or receiving reiki from someone else). I also want to pray more. As I’ve mentioned in my post about my relationship with praying , I tend to stray away from it because it reminds me of Christianity. I think grieving may be a great way for me to change that relationship with prayer because at the end of the day you can pray to whoever or whatever you want, not just the Christian god. So I’d like to reach out to Gaia and Pan more for strength and you can do the same with whoever you matron or patron is. I think meditating and grounding myself will also help me stabilize my emotions. And the last thing I want to suggest for myself and for you is divination. Do spreads to help sort through your emotions. Do spreads for how to cope. Do spreads to talk to those that have passed on if you think that will give you closure. Do a spread to see how your future will be after you’ve moved forward from this hard time.

I hope that this post gives you some ideas on how to cope with what you’re struggling with and also lets you know that even if it feels like you’re all alone and no one understands that there are people who get it (yikes that was cheesy but bear with me). Let me know down below how you use your Wiccan/Pagan faith to get you through times of grief along with any other thoughts or questions you have. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. And until next time, Blessed Be!

 

11 Signs You’re an Earth Angel/Angel Incarnate

Hi everyone! Sorry about the little hiatus for the holidays. I was spending a lot of time with my friends and family. I hope you enjoyed the holidays and are excited for the new year. While I was seeing family I started talking to my dad about my brother, my half-sister, and I all potentially being starseeds and how I think he might be one too. However he told me about how he has had 3 different peoples on separate occasions refer to him as an earth angel or an angel incarnate. So we did a little research and this is what we found.

So, what is an earth angel/angel incarnate? First lets start with saying some sources say they are the same and some say they aren’t. I am going to be assuming they are the same. They are similar to starseeds in the sense that it is a person who’s soul originates from someone who is not human. These beings souls are that of an angel and they have reincarnated into a human form in order to complete their purpose here on earth. When reincarnated into a human form they have to forget their angelic origins. Living on earth is so different compared to how angels would normally live that in order to not be completely miserable they have to forget the way of life they’re used to. Picture knowing you can fly but not actually being able to. Below are some signs that you may be an earth angel/angel incarnate with some examples to how these signs show up in my dad.

#1 You’ve always been connected to nature, mythical creatures, and the meaning of life.

I obviously can’t vouch for how my dad felt about all these things as a child but since I’ve been alive he’s always enjoyed going out on nature walks and camping. Since he was a teenager at least he has always been interested in fantasy books and dungeons and dragons which all have to do with mythical creatures. As for whether or not he is interested in exploring the meaning of life, I would say he is. We talk about our purposes here and origin together often.

#2 You are interested in philosophy, alternative methods of healing, and the metaphysical.

We have not discussed it much because it goes over my head but my dad is quite interested in philosophy. He has taken quite a few classes in Reiki and uses it frequently, if not on a daily basis. As for the metaphysical, I think this topic I am writing about alone is considered metaphysical in itself.

#3 Relationships may be difficult due to being attracted to abusive partners or partners with deep-emotional issues.

My dad has been struggling with finding a long lasting relationship for a while. Every time he thinks things are going well they’ll break up because she’s going through some emotional baggage.

#4 You may often space out, have lucid dreams, vivid dreams, daydreams, or astral projections.

My dad has told me as a kid he would have lucid dreams every night and he could do whatever he wanted in them. If a dream became to overwhelming he could just tell himself to wake up. However, he has told me that as an adult he has stopped remembering his dreams when he wakes up.

#5 You have a hard time with communication so you do so through art, music, writing, and healing.

I don’t know about my dad’s art skills but I do know he enjoys and is great at singing and writing. And, as said above, he does a lot of reiki.

#6 You are not comfortable with your physical body especially your feet, due to being used to flying.

This one gives me a chuckle, because it’s so specific and relevant, as my dad has always had an issue with his feet.

#7 People tell you you look way younger than you are.

As a teenager people always thought my dad was my age. I think this was a mix of him looking young, due to being an earth angel, and me being more mature for my age, due to being a crystal child.

#8 You are in a job where you care for others in one way or another.

When I was a child my dad helped care for people with additional needs. For the last 10ish years my dad has been working as a CCA, which is someone who cares for the elderly, in long-term care facilities or in the clients home.

#9 They are often incarnated in a family that has some sort of dysfunctionality to it. That could be through addictions, mental illness, abuse, etc. They do this to bring light to the family.

Due to privacy I will not go into detail but I will say it is relevant for my dad.

#10 Although they do not keep their wings physically they keep them etherically.

When my dad was getting reiki done, the woman, who was doing the healing, said she saw angel wings coming from my dad. He has also had angels come in the rooms he was getting reiki done in before.

#11 You have a tendency to feel different and alienated from others

My dad has had a hard time making and keeping friendships which could be linked to this.

Something else that I have learned about earth angels/incarnated angels is that they tend to only live until they have completed their purpose. Many actually die as infants. However some do live to adulthood and settle down and have kids, if their purpose is to be done as an adult. Something I wondered is if his purpose was to bring 3 starseeds (each of a different type) together. Therefore he would have had my brother and I (an indigo and a crystal) and then divorced my mum. Then my mom would remarry and create a stable family for my sister the rainbow child who was attracted to our family due to there already being two other starseeds in the home. His purpose not being over could be explained by him still teaching and helping my brother and I (which would allow me to teach and help my half sister). Just a thought and I would love to hear you opinion about it in the comments along with any other thoughts or questions. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notification on when I make posts and when I upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be.

 

Spirit Guides

Right before I start this post, I was wondering if anyone would be interested in a Q+A (about wicca, my relationship, family, me in general, whatever). If so please leave me some questions in the comments or message me them on twitter.

So, what are spirit guides? Well they are thought to be spirits that watch over you from your birth to your death. They can show themselves in different forms (humans, various animals, mythical creatures, etc) depending on what you’ll be most receptive to.

Spirit guides are thought to be souls that have completed their purpose and no longer need to reincarnate. They are there to watch over you, keep you safe, be your confidant, and to give you advise if you’re open to it. They overall, help guide your soul to completing it’s purpose. Some children are blessed to have found them early on and continue into adulthood to be in contact with them. I have a youtuber I follow (Hailey Reese) who has known her spirit guides a long time. I on the other hand have seen a glimpse of one (she’s an elderly woman, looks kinda stereotypically witchy) but other than that have not have the fortune of being in contact with them.

I do however feel they send me messages through animals. I go through different times of seeing the same animal a lot over a period of time. Most recently it was a butterfly. Some other ways they can send you messages is through signs (seeing something, not just animals, a lot in a period of time), gut feelings, intuitive insights (thoughts that seem to come out of nowhere), sending people into your life, arranging and nudging (spirit guides can cause things to happen in your life. For example, you lost your keys and you’re looking for them, then you get a very important phone call. If it wasn’t for you losing your keys you would have missed the phone call).

Some ways to more directly communicating with your spirit guides is to meditate. There are meditations on youtube designed for helping your find your spirit guides. Also pay attention to dreams as you may just find that the people in your dreams that you don’t recognize, or the animal that’s always in your dream, may just be your spirit guide. There is also divination. You can do tarot spreads to communicate with your spirit guides as well.

All in all keep an open mind and pay attention to your surroundings and you may just get some insight from those that watch over you from birth.

Thanks for reading! Make sure you follow me on here and on twitter (especially now that I’m travelling) for updates and notifications on when I post. Have you been in contact with your spirit guides? Have any thoughts or questions? Tell me about it in the comments. Merry Meet and Blessed Be!

 

All about Reiki

So since I got my holy fire reiki 1 and 2 placements over the weekend, and hope to offer a reiki service on the site soon, I thought it would be good to talk about what reiki is.

How does reiki work?

Reiki is an energy that exists beyond this world. It goes beyond time and distance. When one is attuned to the reiki energy you can channel the reiki energy through your hands (palm chakras) and give that energy to yourself or others.

What is the purpose of reiki?

The purpose of reiki is to heal yourself spiritually, physically, and mentally/emotionally. The reiki energy is used to balance and align your chakras which in itself helps your soul, mind, and body. The energy can also focus on other body parts and organs to help heal those as well.

What does it feel like to receive reiki?

Everyone experiences reiki differently. Some people feel nothing but relaxed. Some can feel the energy unblocking their chakras. When I receive reiki I feel a tingly sensation where the practitioner is working on me. Some people see visions, or hear voices. I know some people who start floating off the table. You can be visited by various parts of the universal energy source. I find people often see the universal energy source in the shape of angels but as someone who doesn’t believe in angels I think they they would present themselves differently to me.

How does long distance reiki work?

The way it was explained to me was that picture our souls being connected to a cord that extends past our world to a place where distance and time does not exist. When you administer reiki long distance the energy travels to the start of the cord where there is no time or distance. It travels through the cord and then heals the soul it was meant to heal in our world. So not only can reiki be done long distance, but it can be done to someone in the past or future.

Do I need to take classes to do Reiki?

Some believe you can learn through books on your own but most believe you have to be taught. There are ignitions and placements you have to complete. There are also secret symbols to learn from a teacher. So while some believe you don’t have to learn from a teacher it is agreed that you must learn some way or another. You can’t just do it randomly.

What else should I know about reiki?

Reiki can not cause harm no matter what. You can do Reiki on someone as long as you have their souls permission. So say you want to do Reiki on your child who can’t speak yet, if you ask their soul and their soul gives you permission then you can do Reiki on them.

Reiki has no religion. It is thought of as a pagan concept these days I think, but what do you think Jesus (the real Jesus, the healer, not the one Christian’s talk of, God’s son) was doing? Some form of reiki, even if reiki wasn’t its name then. He was healing with his hands.

Your intention with reiki is what is most important. Your symbols don’t have to be perfect and your hand placements don’t have to be either. As long as your intentions are clear reiki energy will do what needs to be done to help heal the person you are giving reiki to.

And as always, when you are done doing reiki (like when you are done with a sacred circle or a Ouija board for example) you must close the persons energies and let go of the reiki energy. When you are done doing reiki you align the chakras, you remove any psychic waste in the air, and you thank the reiki energy for helping and release it. You do this to make sure the person who received reiki will stay safe because you never know what negative energies are lurking around waiting to feed on someone’s new energy.

After a Reiki session you should drink lots of water and expect to have a deep sleep and possibly some very vivid dreams.

Thank you for reading today! Do you think I should offer long distance reiki on this site? Vote with your answer on my twitter poll or let me know in the comments along with any other thoughts or questions. Also, make sure you subscribe to my blog so you get notifications when I post and to my twitter to see daily posts from me and to get updates any posts being postponed! Until next time, Merry Meet and Blessed Be.

Weekly Tarot Spread: Balancing and Clearing the Root Chakra

Hello everyone. Sorry for the late post but I did explain the situation on my twitter account, so if you want to keep up to date on posts make sure to follow me there.

This last weekend I earned my level 1 and 2 Holy Fire Reiki Practitioner certificate so I thought it would be fun for the next seven weeks to do readings on how to take care of each of our chakras. As one always should I am starting from the top and making my way up.

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The spread I did

I think this spread is super interested because some of the cards I very intuitively knew. I find a lot of the time I go by the book and find the key ideas and use my intuition to feel how it applies but for a few of these cards I could just look at the cards and knew what it was about. Also I think the fact that I have my reiki now really influenced the answers I got from this spread.

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The cards I pulled

As soon as I pulled these cards I could just feel this was a very powerful and meaningful reading for me.

Card to represent my root chakra: Death

So normally this card strikes fear into those that see it but personally this card always makes me feel excited. This card rather about a physical death often represents the end of one path and the start of a new one. I feel this card is strongly connected to the fact that I can now do reiki on myself. It says that my root chakra is going to start a major change/transition (now that I know how to heal with reiki). That the old me needs to die and it’s time for me to be awakened.

My current sense of security: Nine of Swords

So as we know swords talks of a mental or communication issue. Nines are about humanitarianism, universal compassion, and tolerance for the differences in others. So for me I think this says I take security in my compassion, values, and morals. I feel secure in the way I treat others. I’m most secure in my mind where I decide my morals and values.

How to feel grounded: Three of Swords

I feel like in this card it talks about communication issues. I would feel more grounded if I felt with my heard less and more with my soul. I feel my emotions without listening to the earth. If I communicate better with the earth and my soul I would feel a lot more grounded.

Good way to balance this chakra: The Lovers

So firstly as we learned last week, this card if my signifier (the card in the deck that represents me). This to me says it is the most important card to read. It also in the middle of all the cards which to me says that firstly balancing my root chakra is key to how the rest of the cards play out. It also says that since this card is close to all of the cards rather than just some that this entire spread is really important and will likely form how the rest of my chakras align as well. The lovers card is about harmony and unity. SO in order to balance my root chakra I need to find this harmony. I think feeling at home anywhere my partner and I are together is important too.

Result of balancing this chakra: Page of Cups Reversed

This card when reversed means a block in creativity. It also talks of a lack of inspiration, low self-worth, and being easily depressed. So to me this is saying when my root chakra gets balanced all this will be fixed.

I hope you found this interesting! If you think I missed anything, have any thoughts or questions make sure to leave them in the comments. Also be sure to subscribe to me on the website and on twitter so you get notifications when I post. Until next time, Merry Meet and Blessed Be.

My Paranormal Experiences

Hello friends! Today I have a major headache (too much sun exposure I think and not enough water) so I thought today may be good to have a more laid back post. Today I thought it would be fun to talk about my personal paranormal experiences. I’m not a paranormal guru by any means and I have not experienced an extreme amount but I’d say a bit more than your average bear.

So my first story is about back when I was around 11 years old I’d say. It was dark out so there were no sun related shadows happening for the record. I was wheeling our green bin to the curb that night for garbage collection in the morning. As I made it about half way down the driveway I looked up and on the path to my house there was this little girl shadow figure skipping to my front door. I stopped and stared and not long after so did she. She then quickly disappeared. After that I hadn’t really experienced anything too crazy until I moved into the place I am in now.

I moved here originally with my boyfriend (Tristen), our best friend (Kate) and her then boyfriend (Max). Not long after we moved in I noticed there was some weird stuff going on. I found a random baby sock (we have no babies and neither did the previous tenants) in my bedroom. Myself and Max would hear people walking upstairs when no one was up there. One time Kate heard what she thought was the cats running up and down the stairs only to realize they were both napping in the room with her. One time after Tristen and I had left the house for the day, Max said he thought he heard me talking downstairs, only to find out he was home alone. So on Samhain I decided I would use my pendulum during ritual and see if there was anything going on. What I could gather from this was there was a male energy in the house who really got a kick out of scaring us. I did a smudging and he left and what I discovered when he was gone was the energy of a little boy who was being suppressed but the negative dark energy of the previous spirit.

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I talked with this little boy for quite a while using my pendulum. I found out his name was Danny and he was 5 years old. Very sweet spirit, no ill intent at all. He had a tendency to hang out in Kate’s bedroom but tended to keep to himself. Not long before Samhain, Max and Kate had broken up and Max moved out. We found a guy through one of my friends and he moved in, Zach. Zach also seemed sensitive to Danny. One time, around Samhain I had porcelain dolls out for decoration. During the night Kate went to go get a glass of water but one of the dolls had a music box in it (you have to twist it to make it sing) and she could hear it downstairs playing. I’m pretty sure it was Danny. Whenever there is a lot of negative energy in the house that needs clearing Danny gets really quiet in the house. That’s when I know to clear it. Before I made this connection Danny was scratching me to get my intention. It never hurt. I would just find random scratches on my body when it didn’t make sense to have them. Zach has told me that he has felt an presence at the top of our stairs at night which he feels is Danny. One night in the upstairs bathroom, around Zach’s and Kate’s rooms the bluetooth shower speaker went off making a bunch of static noise at top volume. We have no explanation as to why as it has to be manually turned on. Also ,Zach had a friend over who said she saw Danny standing in Zach’s bedroom doorway.

Speaking of seeing things. Back in probably September or October of 2017, in the house I am in now with Kate; Zach; and Tristen, I was sleeping. I woke up and saw a shadow figure standing across the room. I saw it so vividly I jumped (waking Tristen up) and then he was gone. I was so frightened because I thought it was the presence of the negative male energy. After a reading with my pendulum I discovered it was my great grandfather who had passed a number of years prior who had a message for my grandmother which I gave to her (I said I had dream about him rather than saying I saw him in my bedroom).

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I think that’s it for today though. Nothing else comes to mind right now. I hope you guys enjoyed this post. If you want to see more personal posts like this, if you have any thoughts, and/or questions please let me know in the comments. Before you go, make sure to subscribe so you get notifications when I post. Until next time! Merry Meet and Blessed Be!

What is a Starseed

There are various soul origins and one of these origins are souls from different planets. When your soul is in a being on earth but originates from a different planet that being is a starseed.

Here are some characteristics of a starseed:

-Regardless of where you are you feel homesick

-You didn’t fit in as a child

-You have a strong feeling of wanting to go home

-You had strong psychic and/or paranormal experiences as a child which continue now in the present

-You are highly sensitive

-You’re strongly empathetic and can feel others’ emotions

-You have a deep inner wisdom and you feel timeless

-You have a strong sense of a personal mission even if you don’t know what that mission is yet

-You have intense and vivid dreams

-Small children and babies are fascinated by you

-You have a deep connection with nature and seem to be able to communicate with the nature on some level

-You don’t fit in with society and are considered to be strange weird or different

-You may not have many friends

-May feel alienated by parents and immediate family

-You’re very aware of energy and how that energy affects you and others

-You have natural psychic abilities

-You have a great understanding of the greater workings of the universe

An example of being a starseed is me! I went to a shaman last year and she told me that my soul was brand new to earth. My soul is from numerous galaxies away. My soul came to Earth because it saw the need earth was in. My souls mission is to help the earth through educating the very young. She told me this without knowing anything about me and I had been accepted to my college for early childhood education at that point.

I hope you guys enjoyed this post. It wasn’t exclusively about Wicca but definitely relates back! If you guys have any thoughts or questions please leave them in the comments! I love hearing from you guys. Merry Meet and Blessed Be!

 

What Happens When We Die

Sorry about skipping Saturdays post! I was crazy busy and totally didn’t think of it but lets start with this post.

So, like all aspects of Wicca not everyone believes the exact same thing when it comes to what happens after we die.

One thing that is pretty uniform about our beliefs on death is that we all tend to believe in reincarnation. What differs is what happens between death and reincarnation. I think the common belief is that when we die we go to summerland. What people think happen in summerland varies but it is generally thought to be a place where the soul goes to reflect on their previous lives and prepare for the next. Some believe that they walk summerland with the god and goddess and reflect with them where other’s believe they are just in this tranquil state and reflect on their own.

Also what Wiccan’s believe they reincarnate into varies. I believe it is most commonly thought that you reincarnate into a random new person. Other’s believe it has to do with Karma and based on how good of a person you were in your past life. Other’s are more inclined to believe in that you are reincarnated into whatever the earth needs at the time, so a person, animal, tree, etc

Another thing about Wicca is some Wiccan’s (to my understanding a majority but I’m not positive) believe in different realms. So a lot of Wiccan’s believe in fairies, in gnomes, and other magical creatures. A lot also believe that we are not the only planet to have living beings like humans. So some Wiccan’s also believe we can reincarnate from and into those other species.

I will tell you what I believe now. I believe that when we die instead of going to a place such as summerland our souls just return back to the earth until we are ready to become reincarnated again. I believe all of our souls have a mission that originated with their creation and that our soul gets reincarnated into whatever at that time will be the best fit for our goal. For example I believe my soul is a Starseed which essentially means it originates from a different planet. My soul’s mission was to come to earth and try and better the earth through children. I came to this conclusion because I went to see a Shaman and she told me this without knowing anything about me and it just so happens I am studying to be an early childhood educator and all the details she gave fit my life perfectly. Also a lot of characteristics that starseeds possess I also possess. As for whether I believe in fairies, gnomes, unicorns, and the like is something I haven’t decided yet.

Please leave any comments or questions! Thanks for reading. Merry Meet and Blessed Be