Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Six of Swords

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When pulled upright this card is about having to make a regrettable transition in your life. This transition is likely happening due to a decision you made in the past which is now forcing you to leave something behind as you move forward. Despite the fact that this is bringing a great deal of sadness you need to remember that given the circumstances this is the best possible outcome. This card reminds you that life is full of times where you have to let go of things you’ve become accustomed to. This isn’t going to be easy but remember that this sadness is only temporary. Look forward to your future and gain strength from its possibilities. Sometimes you can’t fix what’s broken. The only thing you can do it leave the issue and start new. You may find yourself thinking that this seems cowardly but sometimes it’s the only thing that can be done when you’ve tried to make it work using every other method. Now you need to start planning your path to a happier future. Due to it being a swords card it is telling you to make these plans with logic, clarity, and objectively to know where you’ve been, where you are now, and where you want to go.

When pulled in reverse this card is about how you’ve been actively trying to make this transition and move on however you may find that making this transition is quite challenging. You may find yourself reliving your past due to unresolved issues, or maybe because you are second guessing your decisions. Another meaning of this card could be that you are actually resisting these transitions. You may feel forced into doing things that you aren’t ready for or that you don’t want to do at all. Take a second to think about the possible benefits of these transitions and not just their negatives.

Here is a tarot spread to help you embrace the transitions that are happening in your life. First I would take the six of swords of the deck and meditate on it while thinking about the transitions that are starting to take form in your life. Then shuffle and pull using your preferred method.

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That’s all for today. I hope you enjoyed! What has the six of swords been telling you? Let me know in the comments along with any other thoughts or questions you have. Also make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notification when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be!

Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Five of Swords

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When pulled upright this card is about being in a conflict. It also could be about a disagreement with someone(s) which is creating a lot of tension in your relationship with them. It may appear that you’ve won right now but when you look at the big picture you may realize that you’ve actually lost because you have damaged your relationship with this person which has now isolated you. You may find that at the time you were more concerned with being right than understanding the other person’s point of view. Now you need to try and pick up the pieces and fix this relationship you’ve hurt. The conflict is still fresh so resentment hasn’t had time to fester. You need to decide what is most important to you, winning the argument or your relationship with said person. This card is also about a negative type of ambition. This is the kind of ambition that has no regard for others. It doesn’t care who it has to knock down to achieve it’s goal. This kind of ambition can leave you either a sore loser or a sore winner and nothing in between. This card reminds us to think about others and to let go of our egos.

When pulled in reverse this card is about wanting to forgive and forget the conflict that the five of swords in the upright position is referring to. This card shows that you have started to realize that winning isn’t always everything. Because of this you will be able to take all the energy you were investing in winning and put it towards something better. There is another interpretation of this card which is that the conflict you are experiencing is going to become more upsetting as you realize you all are going to lose.

Here is a tarot spread to help you organize your thoughts on a conflict you’re experiencing. First I would take the five of swords out of the deck and meditate on it while focusing on this conflict. Then shuffle and pull the cards using your preferred method.

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I hope you enjoyed today’s post! What has the five of swords been telling you? Let me know in the comments along with any other thoughts or questions you have. Make sure you stay tuned here, on twitter, and on my youtube channel as I’ll be posting about my trip to Salem in this next week! Until next time, Blessed Be!

Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Four of Swords

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When pulled upright it is saying that it is time for your to retreat. The three of swords was a very intense card talking about a lot of grief and suffering. This four of swords is telling you to step back from these issues and rest. You may be withdrawing consciously or maybe you just have no choice from sheer exhaustion. You are still surrounded by reminders of your grief but in order to be able to return your everyday life you need to take some time to recoup and rest. There is always that slight chance that there is more loss to experience and you should rest now while you have the chance. It would be really beneficial if you went somewhere private, be it the cottage, a little trip somewhere warm, or maybe the beach and regain your strength and clarity. It is time to go over your priorities and make sure you’re approaching everything the way you want to be/should be. This card is about getting ready new challenges. You are experiencing crisis after crisis and it is wiping you out. You will only be able to face the next challenge after you’ve recouped some. 

When pulled in reverse this card is about feeling restless. Your heart is ready to relax but your brain is not. You are feeling that there is a lot depending on you. Continuing on this path that you’re on is not a good idea and could affect your health. You can keep fighting but you can only endure so much. You have to know your own strength and know when to back out. Letting yourself rest and refresh can be a very important measure of self-love. You can try to push ahead anyway but it will only make things difficult for you long term. 

Here is a tarot spread to help you relax and rest. First I would take out the four of swords and meditate with it thinking about all the conflict that’s been going on and how tired you are. Then shuffle and pull the cards using your preferred method.

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That’s all for this week. I hope you enjoyed! Let me know what the four of swords has been telling your lately, along with any other thoughts or questions you may have. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be!

Weekly Tarot Reading: Let Your Soul Shine (Summer Solstice spread)

Hi everyone! I thought since Friday is going to be Litha we would do a little tarot spread that embodies the holiday. This spread is going to give you some insight on how you can be the best you you can be this summer.

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The Tarot Spread

I actually enjoyed this spread so much that I was compelled to do it for my partner too. I have pulled the cards already but am writing this before I get the chance to really analyze the cards and get his message. I’m very excited.

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These are the cards I pulled for myself

Card 1: You as you are now (knight of cups reversed)

This card essentially was telling me that I allow my emotions to control my life more than I should. That I am overly jealous, emotional, and/or moody. I also jump to conclusions too fast.

I can definitely say that all of the above is true and it is something I really am trying to work on but I am not sure how honestly.

Card 2: What’s keeping you from being your best? (Ace of wands reversed)

This card talks a lot about going through trials and tribulations. That I feel I have no direction which is causing a lack of inspiration and motivation. Essentially I am just in a slump. I don’t seem to be excited to reach my goals and I am feeling weighed down by current commitments and responsibilities.

As you all know my life has just been bonkers lately and it still hasn’t stopped being bonkers. More and more things keep coming up. So that part seems pretty true. My lack of inspiration and motivation is actually so extreme that is seems to cause problems in my relationship with my partner. Honestly it is a mental health issue that I know needs fixed but once again I don’t know how. As for feeling weighed down by commitments and responsibilities it is a double edged sword. I work all day, then I come home and I am either, editing videos, uploading videos, or writing blog posts. I do a lot and it is super exhausting. However I am so proud of myself and what I have accomplished with this blog and my channel in such a short amount of time and I really don’t what to stop. So I need to learn how to balance out my schedule better.

Card 3: How to overcome it (The lovers)

Essentially this card to me was telling me to let my partner take care of me more. Sure I tell him what is upsetting me and I talk to him about stuff. But I very rarely let him see me breakdown. And especially these last 2-3 months I’ve totally broken down a lot and he’s seen me do that maybe once or twice. I don’t like to let him see me a mess or anyone else for that matter. However this card serves as a reminder to me that he can handle the mess that is me. And by me not letting him fulling in to what I am experiencing emotionally I am hindering myself.

Card 4: How you can work towards your goals (Ten of Pentacles)

I am very bad at making long term goals. I like immediate satisfaction and anything that doesn’t provide that I often drop. That is one reason why my partner is so surprised that I am still writing this blog. I have not become a superstar overnight and am still nowhere close to achieving that stardom. To go along with that most of my goals that I have for my blog and my channel are short term goals since I do enjoy that instant gratification. For instance I made a goal for the month of June to get 50 subscribers on my youtube channel. When I made this goal I already had 49 subscribers. I now have 53 subscribers which is obviously surpassed my very easy goals. I get nervous to make long term goals as I am afraid I will never accomplish them and in the end let myself (and possibly others) down. However this card is telling me I need to do just that. More of my goals will be met if I actually set those long term goals I fear.

Card 5: How you can care for yourself (Two of Swords reversed)

I have this tendency of getting into these stalemate like situations where I just need to make a choice but neither seem good so I just don’t chose. I like to think that if I pretend the issue doesn’t exist that it’ll go away. Newsflash! The situation doesn’t go away. Surprising right? This card is telling me to simply start making choices so my stress can go away.

Card 6: How you can care for others (Seven of wands reversed)

As I kinda said early when talking about my partner, I need to start letting my walls down. I tend to come across as aggressive when I am protecting myself and it damages my relationships with others. This card seems to be saying once I take care of myself, let myself be more vulnerable and learn to protect myself less aggressively, caring for others should fall into place naturally.

Card 7: How you can care for the world (Four of Pentacles)

This card is one I had a hard time interpreting today. From what I could gather it is reminding me not to become to materialistic. It also seems to be saying that in order to care for the world I need to take more risks.

 

This is all I have today! Let me know what you think of this spread, along with anything you think I missed, any other thoughts, or questions you have down below. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be!

Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Three of Swords

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When upright this card is about rejection, betrayal, hurt, and discouragement. The key is to really use your logic over your emotions in this and the discomfort you experience will be minimal. However it is important to remember, that although unpleasant, pain and grief are a normal part of life and makes it so we can appreciate joy and happiness. So although the three of swords speaks about suffering, it is the type of suffering necessary to make us stronger people. The three of swords is there to encourage us to get back up when we’ve been knocked down. Any suffering you experience in this world is there to help you find a deeper meaning in the world. This card shows itself to prepare you for the next stage in your life.

When pulled in reverse this card is about having experienced some sort of loss, break up, or some amount of grief. It is possible that you are still recovering from this turmoil and so you may find it hard to move on. This card is telling you that it is time to let go of that hurt and to move towards the rest of your life because there is much joy to be experienced still. The issue is most people can’t see that joy will come back into their lives again and so they get stuck in a rut unable to continue the recovery process. Remember the message of the three of swords is that the pain all has a end and joy will come back to your life if you let it. 

Here is a tarot spread to help you let go and to give you a glimpse of the joy you have coming your way. First I would take the three of swords and meditate on it while thinking about the joy you want to manifest into your life. Then shuffle and pull the cards using your preferred method.

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Thanks for checking out today’s post. I hope you enjoyed. What has the three of swords been telling you? Let me know in the comments below along with any other thoughts or questions you may have. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos you youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be!

Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Two of Swords

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When pulled upright this card is about a stalemate. There are two people, ideas, situations, what have you, that are clashing right now. Neither are getting anywhere due to this. When you started on your journey down the path that led you here you had not foreseen an issue such as this. You probably are finding that you’re caught right in the middle. If nothing or no one sorts this out this stalemate could continue indefinitely. You need to choose between one or the other, despite the fact that neither probably sound all that desirable. As soon as you make this decision though you will be able to progress on your journey. You may also find that this card is about balance and partnerships. It is reminding us that we need to keep our relationships balanced. Regardless of what type of relationship it is, business, platonic, romantic, etc you find yourself struggling to maintain them. If this a reading about work this card suggests you are stuck in limbo and seem to be waiting on the decisions of others. Remember to stay patient and don’t pressure this person into rushing their decision. This card could also be warning you to be cautious. You may find that you are trying to stay ignorant of the situation hoping that if you don’t acknowledge it it’ll go away. This card is reminding you to stop avoiding your problems as this will not fix them.

When pulled in reverse this card is about a much more intense stalemate. It is like 2 forces are battling each other. This could be an external battle or an internal one, but regardless you are being forced to be the tie breaker. You may find that neither party are easy to work with which may be making it hard for you to make your decision. Whenever you do make the decision it will be a decision between two bad outcomes. The important part is to just make the choice because you will be able to deal with what consequences it brings. 

Here is a spread to help you make your decision in your stalemate. First I would take out the two of swords and meditate on it while thinking about the 2 choices that you have before you. Then shuffle and pull using your preferred method.

 

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Thanks for checking out today’s post! I hope you learned something new. Let me know what the two of swords has been telling you down below along with any other thoughts or questions you may have. Also make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be!

Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: Ace of Swords

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When pulled upright this card is about breakthroughs, just like all ace cards are. However do to this card being a sword it says that this breakthrough has more to with in intellect. So maybe you have been struggling to find the solution to a problem, this could be a breakthrough for that. It could also be a breakthrough in a situation where you were trying to determine the truth of something. It also talks about seeing the world from a new point of view and realizing you have endless opportunities. Now is a really great time to start working towards your goals. Since your conscious is clear and you are at a point of swift thinking now is a good time to seek justice and truth. It is important to remember that swords can be double-edged. So this clarity you are experiencing can be used for good or bad deeds. It is all dependent on you. It also reminds you that too much power can corrupt a person so you need to stick with your principles. 

When pulled in reverse can be saying that instead of having a mental breakthrough you could actually be very confused, unsure, and feel very chaotic. It is good to remember, that due to this, it is not a good time to be making any decisions, since those choices won’t be backed with a clear mind. Now is a better time to prepare yourself for what is to come and take baby steps towards it. Now is the time to take yourself through each and every stage of what you want to accomplish and really create some sort of plan, rather than acting spontaneously. It would also be good to ask for advice because everything may not be as it seems. 

Here is a tarot spread that may help you achieve your mental breakthrough. First I would take the ace of swords out of the deck and mediate on it while really trying to clear your mind of any chaos and confusion. Then shuffle the cards and pull using your preferred method.

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That is all for today’s post. I hope you enjoyed. What has the ace of swords been telling you lately? Let me in the comments below along with any other thoughts or questions you may have. Make sure you follow me here on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. Until next time, Blessed Be!

Weekly Tarot Series: Grief Tarot Spread

Hi everyone, if you’ve read last weeks post you’ll know that I’ve been having a very hard month or two. If you follow me on twitter you will also know that my Nan passed away Wednesday afternoon. I wanted to find a way to continue my coping but also be delivering you content. Since this is Tarot Friday I thought instead of doing the next tarot card in the series I would do a tarot spread that may help you if you are going through a time of grief.

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Here is the tarot spread I chose to do. I found this super helpful and really brought me some peace.

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The cards I pulled

Card #1: Represents myself internally right now (Queen of Wands)

So this card actually surprised me. This placement is supposed to be about how I am doing internally right now. I assumed it would just tell me I’m miserable but instead it focused on how I am extremely focused, courageous, determined, and still doing my best to be positive, uplifting, and joyful.

Card #2: Represents the deceased (Five of Wands)

At first I didn’t quite understand what this card was telling me but then I realized it was saying that Nan had worked through her troubles and she did not have any more issues to worry about. It really just confirmed for me that she is at peace finally.

Card #3: Represents the relationship between you and the deceased (The Hanged Man)

Once again this is another card I had a hard time interpreting given what it was supposed to represent. Still don’t feel totally confident in my interpretation so if someone understands it a bit more feel free to let me know down below. Essentially what I gathered was that our relationship in the physical world had to be sacrificed in order to move forward. So her death was necessary (and the way it happened specifically) for me to be able to move on.

Card #4: A lesson the deceased has taught you (Justice)

This card says that Nan taught me firstly that decisions have long-term effects. But also that truth is essential in all things — one must learn the truth about others and yourself and one must speak and know the truth before judging others.

Card #5: Something that will help me move on (five of pentacles)

What I did with this card was a little different than how I normally read a card. I used the upright version of it (as I pulled it upright) to determine how I was feeling and then I used the reverse meaning to determine what will help me move on from those feelings. So the card said I was in a time of hardship. It also said I was feeling cursed and as though I had bad luck and I have actually said this out loud to my coworkers, so it really struck home. However how I will move on is that to recognize that brightness is coming into my life, that change is coming soon, and the worst is now over.

Card #6: How can I connect with the deceased going forward (Knight of Cups)

Pulling this card was really cool because the knight of cups actually acts as a messengers. And despite how cliche it sounds this card seems to be saying that I can connect with her by listening to my heart and trusting my intuition.

Card #7: A Message from the deceased (Ace of Wands)

This was a really nice message to receive from her and once again made me feel really at peace. Her message was to be creative and bold. To find and use my own voice. Also to follow my instincts and just go for it.

All in all this is a really great tarot spread that I would thoroughly recommend you use if you are struggling and going through a hard time. It has brought me a significant amount of peace. However that is all for today. Let me know if this spread was as helpful to you as it was for me down below in the comments, along with anything you think I missed, questions, or thoughts. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload to videos to youtube. And until next time, Blessed Be!

 

Grieving as a Wiccan

Lately I’ve been grieving a lot. This last month or two has been pretty hard. So today I want to talk to you about that. I’ve wanted to talk about it for a while but I wasn’t sure how to format it. So I’m just deciding to write. It may be super long or super short but I think writing this will get it off my chest. My writing style may be a bit different than it usually is, it may not be… I dunno. Regardless I hope you don’t mind.

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The Thursday before the Easter weekend I was contacted by my family, while at work, that my great grandmother wasn’t doing very well. She’s hasn’t been super healthy for a couple years now but nothing crazy. However this time was different. My mom usually tells me that it isn’t anything to worry about yet, but this time she said I might want to come home and see her. So there I was in front of my preschoolers that I teach and I just cried. I told them what was wrong and let me tell you, 4 year olds are so compassionate and loving. They loved me and snuggled me all day long. It was so beautiful. I went to see her that weekend. I live about 3 hours away from my family. My partner and little sister went in with me to see her. She had a hard time talking cause her breathing was very laboured but we had a great visit. That’s the last time I will see my great grandmother. She’s still alive though. When I went to see her she was at her home. Now she is in a hospital and has been for a couple weeks now. My mom says she isn’t the same nan we know and love and that she wouldn’t want me to see her this way. She’s in a lot of pain and is just waiting to die. Every morning I wake up and check my phone to see if I have a message telling me she’s passed. I hope she does soon so she can be at peace. She really hates hospitals. So this is when my grieving started.

Back in March one of the little girls at my preschool (we’ll call her Mabel for privacy sake) went to Florida with her family for a trip. The second day in she got very sick and started having seizures. She had to be put in the hospital. She had what they call F.I.R.E.S. I am not super knowledgeable on what it is. All I know is it’s rare, it started as a common cold, and she had seizures, also 30% of those who get it die from it. However I didn’t know that at the time. It never occurred to me that she would die. Maybe that is naive but that’s how I felt. For two months I had very few updates other than a gofundme page and occasionally something would get written on her classroom attendance sheet about it. Then I came in to work last Friday (the 10th) and was told she didn’t make it. Mabel was 4 years old. I know a dead 4 year old. I was nervous for my kids to find out. I didn’t want them to be sad or scared they were going to die. But when you’re 4 years old 2 months is a long time and a lot of them didn’t remember Mabel very well. I was lucky in that sense so instead of being sad they just had a lot of questions which was a lot easier to deal with. This last Thursday (the 16th) I went to Mabel’s funeral. I wore a pink dress (everyone was in bright pinks and purples as requested by Mabel’s family). It was one of the saddest things I have ever experienced.

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I’m telling you all of this for a couple reasons. One reason is that talking about this I hope will be a little therapeutic for me. I also wanted everyone to understand why my posting has been so inconsistent these last few weeks (also why it may continue to be inconsistent when my nan passes). But also I wanted to share how I am coping as a Wiccan (or if I’m not already doing these things they are things I want to start doing to cope).

What is helping me cope with Nan is first and foremost I know that her passing is going to bring her peace. But also I know that her soul will reincarnate and I will meet it again whether in this life or the next. I’m really trying to focus on the fact that she lived such a great and beautiful life and not on the fact that she’ll be gone.

What is helping me the most when it comes to coping about Mabel is also related to reincarnation but it is a bit different. If you’ve read my post about the signs you are an earth angel you will know that many of these people die as a child. When I think about Mabel, and the beautiful energy her soul had, I confidently feel she had the soul of an angel. Without a doubt. So despite the fact that I don’t totally understand how she died, I can understand why she died and that to me brings great peace.

However other than thinking about these things I have not done much to cope but have just not been thinking about it and it’s probably not the most healthy method of healing. Things that I want to start incorporating into my coping process that you can try too is reiki (be it self reiki or receiving reiki from someone else). I also want to pray more. As I’ve mentioned in my post about my relationship with praying , I tend to stray away from it because it reminds me of Christianity. I think grieving may be a great way for me to change that relationship with prayer because at the end of the day you can pray to whoever or whatever you want, not just the Christian god. So I’d like to reach out to Gaia and Pan more for strength and you can do the same with whoever you matron or patron is. I think meditating and grounding myself will also help me stabilize my emotions. And the last thing I want to suggest for myself and for you is divination. Do spreads to help sort through your emotions. Do spreads for how to cope. Do spreads to talk to those that have passed on if you think that will give you closure. Do a spread to see how your future will be after you’ve moved forward from this hard time.

I hope that this post gives you some ideas on how to cope with what you’re struggling with and also lets you know that even if it feels like you’re all alone and no one understands that there are people who get it (yikes that was cheesy but bear with me). Let me know down below how you use your Wiccan/Pagan faith to get you through times of grief along with any other thoughts or questions you have. Make sure you follow me here and on twitter so you get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. And until next time, Blessed Be!

 

Tarot Series~Minor Arcana: King of Cups

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When pulled upright this card is about creativity, emotion, and the subconscious. When you get this card it describes someone being in charge of their emotions which means one is balanced between logic and emotion. He also shows us that there is a strong relationship between understanding and feeling. When you are faced with a challenge you may get the king of cups as reminder to act as he would; you need to gain control of your emotions before you pursue anything so you can progress properly in reality. This card could also represent an older male in your life. This man will be someone who mature and willing to take responsibility for his actions. This card also talks about being very diplomatic and being able to balance the needs of others. He reminds you that you should remain mature when you’re dealing with negative energy. 

When pulled in reverse this card is about someone who is volatile, emotionally manipulative, and moody. This card is about someone who is unable to balance the needs of others and may come across as cold to some people. His ability to understand others emotions may be used to manipulate others rather than help them. When you pull this card it is suggesting that either you or someone you know embodies the traits of the reversed king of cups. This person normally embodies the traits of the upright king of cups however and has only just lately been showing manipulative and controlling behaviours. His current actions are vengeful and vindictive. He will eventually experience some sort of punishment for his actions.

To help you balance logic and emotions here is a tarot spread! Before you start I would take out the king of cups card and meditate while thinking about the situation you want advice on. Then shuffle and pull the cards using your preferred method.

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Cards 1 & 2
The Head Says… – These two cards represent the logical and creative mind. Some may refer to this as left-brain & right-brain thinking. Whatever your school of thought about brain hemispheres might be, these cards reveal how the mind’s logic may be working for you or against you. The first two cards can also reflect what the mind visualizes or perceives about your matter that perhaps has not manifested into reality. What is going on up there?

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The Heart Says…
 – These three cards represent authenticity of emotions, sensitivity, trust and the flexibility to be open to giving and receiving. It will be revealed through the cards that fall if following your heart will be the wisest decision. Healthy emotional intelligence reciprocates well with the environment, thus following your heart should show up as a clear statement supported by other cards.

Thanks for checking out today’s post! What has the king of cups been telling you? Let me know in comments along with any other thoughts or questions you may have. Also don’t forget to follow me here and on twitter to get notifications when I post and when I upload videos to youtube. And until next time, Blessed Be!